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最近我总是忍不住想你，不是因为思念，而是因为一种奇怪的感觉。那种感觉就像被一只无形的手握住，不允许我松手。我想—you,你，想得太久了，不想再见到你了。
每次晚上回家，看着你坐在沙发上的样子，我的胃部都会一阵阵发紧。那种不适感让我忍不住想要靠近一点，甚至想把你的脸贴到脸上。可问题是——你不愿意让我碰你。你说你不喜欢这样，但我知道，我偏要勉强、舔的舒服。
我坐在你对面的位置，看着你专注地盯着屏幕，努力 work 的样子。我想起之前和你在一起的时候，总是忍不住想要 pull you closer, to taste the way your skin feels. 我知道，我不能这样。这样会伤害到你，让你感到不自在。但有时候，我还是忍不住想—you, you always make me feel so uncomfortable.
我知道，我的占有欲是如此强大，以至于即使在你面前，我也无法自控。那种渴望让我觉得呼吸都变得困难，手心开始冒汗。我想—you, you are so addictive. You have a way of making me feel so alive, even when I’m trying to suppress the desire to touch you.
但每次你说No的时候，我就更加痛苦。我知道，我不能让她再忍受这种感觉了。可是有时候，我又忍不住想要碰一碰你，想感受一下你身上熟悉的味道。那种刺激感让我觉得如此wrong，却又无法控制自己。
或许这就是我偏要勉强、舔的舒服吧。一种病，一种对某人的过度占有欲。我不知道什么时候开始这样的，也许是因为 too much exposure to you. Maybe it’s because I can’t stop thinking about you.
I know that I shouldn’t do this, but sometimes my mind just won’t let me stop. I want to taste you, to feel your skin against mine, to experience the chemistry between us again. But every time I try to suppress it, something inside me rebels and pushes back.
Maybe this is the price of being with you. Of loving you in a way that feels so intense, so possessive. I know it’s not healthy, but sometimes I just can’t resist.
In the end, I have to remind myself to be careful. To stop when I feel it getting too much, to respect your boundaries even if they’re hard to listen to. It’s a battle inside me, and I hope one day I can find a way to win without losing myself in the process.
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